Do the riches of his extraordinary kindness make you take him for granted and despise Him? Haven't you experienced how kind and understanding he has been to you? Don't mistake his tolerance for acceptance. Do you realize that all the wealth of his extravagant kindness is meant to melt your heart and lead you into repentance?
Romans 2:4 (TPT)
It's interesting how one thought leads to another and your left with something completely different then where you started. So we're left with repentance once again. A few days ago I read something that kind of painted this picture of the fear of the Lord causing us to repent and I had this thought of "actually His kindness towards me has led me to repentance" I'm sure it's different for everyone but that was my initial thought when reading and was so thankful that it was his gentle kindness.
I may have mentioned this before but I was brought back to a summer when I was actively disobeying God, I chose sin over what He wanted for me. That sin lead to what felt like death, I didn't know who I was and every day was full of anxiety. It was hard and felt like I would never get out. That same summer I was signed up to go to three different countries, I had to fund for these trips and didn't put to much work in trying to get funded. I think I told a few people and made one Facebook post about it. No time had passed at all and I was fully funded, some over $10,000 raised for my trips. Insane!
I remember praying and asking the Lord how He did that so quickly and why? I soon became aware that I was about to go to these countries and minister to people who were in bondage to sin and I was living that way. The Lords goodness towards me getting me funded for those trips led me into a repentance that softened my heart causing me to turn to Him. I never viewed it as Him rewarding me for my bad behavior but more so as Him knowing that there was more for me and the identity I created for myself was not lasting. He knew I was capable of so much more and wanted to show me that. I'm so thankful for that time and how gentle and loving He was toward me as I was choosing to do wrong. His kindness led me to Repentance. The way He leads us looks differnent and at times is specific to us which for me is a reminder that I am known and seen by Him. This life with Him isnt a step by step formula leading to the same outcome it is intimate.